I’ll try not to be too mush here, but I can’t help but feel so incredibly lucky – the last 10 years of our marriage have been amazing and I can only see it gaining more and more strength as each year flies by. So I’ll try to keep brief and list the 10 things I cherish the most about my hubby on our anniversary day…
1) We both have two beautiful little girls together
2) So kind with such a big heart
3) Fun even on the quietest of nights
4) I love sharing my life with him
5) Both trying to stick to the ‘Spreadsheet of Doom’ trying not to let it stress us out too much
6) Knowing I am totally with my soul mate
7) Catching myself just staring at him….he’s so handsome!
8) The love and patience he has for me and the girls
9) His clever and very quick sense of humour…not always in my favour, but funny all the same
10) Silly….he’s very very silly and this is so incredibly important!
Happy Anniversary darling, here’s to another 100!!
Beating myself up, holding onto anxiety in my heart and feeling utterly hopeless…qualities I’m not proud of and wish I didn’t suffer damn it. But right now I’m allowing just a little self paranoia seep into my day…dwelling on mistakes is never a healthy past time, less still imaginary arguments.
I have been making mindless mistakes recently, and to the cost of my professional reputation. I’ve always been a tad ditzy, I put this down to general trying to do too much and a creative mind. But random excuses can’t help the awful realisation of some of my forgetfulness.
I honestly worry about it, my ego runs wild with out of control thoughts, wondering what on earth others must think of me…how stupid I am to forget a meeting full of people waiting for me…silly image mistakes with fellow bloggers… Confidence falls away and childlike fear replaces rational thoughts! I end up into such a tizz and everything and anything will set me off!
Thankfully I have the saving grace of an incredible hubby, family, friends, yoga and meditation. The art of practicing self love, manifesting positive affirmations and checking into my emotions has helped me reduce my anxieties no end… and I can highly recommend Dr Habib Sadeghi’s book Within…
I’m sure this is a classic case of ‘mothers guilt’ and trying to ‘achieve it all’… sometimes I just need to let the ego go, forgive my memory, let go of the anxiety and go for a run…or pour a cheeky G&T! Either way, I now have to be mindful of how lucky I am, who I have in my life and be grateful for all my amazing work and opportunities … Now where’s the Hendricks!!…
The last Half Term we had a few weeks ago, (seems a lifetime now), a lovely little group of us were invited by Team Disney to a private screening of Frozen’s sing-a-long version of the film – if I’d said ‘no’ to this, my life probably wouldn’t be worth living – my girls have become Anna and Elsa since it’s launch at the cinemas!! They don’t just love Frozen…they actually LIVE it – they know the songs, actions, dresses, characters…daily..!
And I’m not afraid to raise my hand and admit I absolutely love this film too, there’s a fantastic message in there and it has that musical magic about it – It’s West End Stage worthy for sure. So the biggest treat of all from our day, (apart from the endless cupcakes at Soho Hotel) was a Q&A session after the screening with Frozen directors Jennifer Lee and Chris Buck, who were still on a BAFTA high from the night before and holding their fab award. Such lovely people who explained the inspiration behind the film (Hans Christian Anderson’s The Snow Queen), and where Olaf’s Summer Song came from (Jennifer Lee’s twisted sense of humour apparently….it’s our favourite song). My girls and I bailed from asking any questions (nerves….it runs in the family), but it was an honour to meet them, say hello and congratulate them in person.
So guess which character my eldest dressed for Book Day….and made mummy create a dress for her because anything to do with Elsa was completely sold out at the time, including outfits….and then mummy went a little overboard with the whole thing, and spent a fortune in the haberdashers….I blame fashion college! But here’s my little Snow Queen…to say she was a bit excited about this would be an understatement!!
I’ve also illustrated my version of Elsa for my title image….watch this space for more news regarding the whole illustration thing – it’s coming along…if a little slowly…!
If you fancy ordering the DVD, click here (I’ve put an order in for mine, which I paid for before we went to see the film) – I would LOVE to hear your thoughts about the film, for example, you can’t wear mascara because it makes you cry so much…not that I did….especially at the ‘Do You Want To Build A Snowman’ song…ehem…!! Disney does it again, but I love them for it :)….
I love chairs. There is something quite beautiful in such a simple design for something incredibly practical. Interiors are a general passion, so meeting Jay and Jade who founded the inspiring charity Out Of The Dark , blew me away. Not only does the charity support young people to achieve a better life and help them focus on something positive and away from crime, it teaches them new life skills within a reputable industry. The charity also uses 100% junk shop/skip/donation finds, up-cycling furniture for top retailers – Heals and Sainsburys to name just two.
So I chose this little beaut to re-upholster – I’m currently working on an interiors project at the end of the garden, and think this would look fabulous in a green velvet – looking forward to the reveal!
I have a huge amount of respect for Jade and Jay, who created such an incredible charity and wish them all the luck in the Universe to make Out Of The Dark even more of a huge success…
It’s been one of those months again, full to the brim with work, half term, parties and appointments – life is speeding past at the rate of knots and I’m trying my hardest to take it all in. It’s especially alarming to see my little girls grow so quickly and this is the part I’m desperately trying to hold onto and take notice of the most.
My illustration today is about smiling and looking at life with as much happiness in my heart as possible. I am so blessed and grateful for everything and everyone in my life at the moment and hope that the splatty and slightly wonky illustration above will raise a smile for whoever reads this post – have a smiley sunday and rest of the week folks…x
If I could round this week up into one word, it would have to be just ‘AWESOME’…crazy awesome in fact. I need to download the sights and emotions here on my blog, as I still can’t quite compute how much has happened in just seven days! I’m not going to go into massive detail for each event, as every one of them is a blog post in itself- for now I’ll try to give you a snapshot of the main things I feel have changed/improved/filled my life….
EFT, Tapping and a spot of Reiki
I’ve been feeling a bit low of late for a variety of reasons, and it all came to a head last Friday, so my friend/gatemate/angel Rachel (that’s a link to her Twitter account by the way, don’t worry, I’ll teach her how to use it!!), asked me to book an appointment to try some tapping to help ground me. I’ve never even given a second thought for this type of holistic therapy – I can be quite dismissive sometimes…but OH MY GOD!! Try it – it’s like flushing away all the anxiety and replacing it with calm. And then she applied Reiki..utter bliss and prepared me for the week ahead
I then went to see my gorgeous homeopath Kay from Marlow Homeopathy – she instantly recognised where I was with my emotions and gave me the remedies I needed after my incredible EFT experience…she helped me make a complete U turn from the Friday experience
These two girls are my online rocks – they’re as fiesty as they are loving and I absolutely adore them – Jay and I were holding a photography workshop the next day, so they both stayed at my house…to say we had a complete laugh would be an understatement – needless to say, our planned early night, (I say ‘our’…what I meant to say was ‘my’) was one of wine and lateness!!
Jay Mountfords Photography Workshop at Home Barn
AMAZING day, incredible team and now I can switch from Auto to Manual on my most basic of basic cameras…I do need to buy a new one actually – thank you Jay for being the BEST teacher EVER and to Home Barn for hosting at their impossibly amazing venue, Tara Cain for shooting the day, and Claire Archbold, Sian To, Lisa Levis and Danielle, Caroline Davis, Clare Nolan, Amanda Glam, Sarah Jones, and hosts Sarah and Sally Wilkie for being so much fun and creating a great atmosphere. Food was served at our gorgeous little local The Queens Head – if you’re ever in the area, please try the place out, the food is divine
Worked….like a headless loon all day, then later booked a much needed deep massage at home with the lovely Laura who recently started her blissful home spa service Glow On The Go – ouch but mmmm. She advised me to have another session as my shoulders are like rocks…to the point her hands were clicking during the half hour massage! She really went for it, thankfully using Aromatherapy Associates – possibly THE best massage oils ever and smell heavenly
A quick visit to my client Stellé Audio Couture to pick up some Bluetooth speaker samples for London Fashion Week – the office is based in Berkhamsted and bang next door to the most FABULOUS dress agency called Luminous & Vogue – I spotted some incredible, unworn Mark by Mark Jacobs shoes…my size…my style…just mine – timely I thought, and what with my name written all over them and that….they’re now MINE!! I also popped into Plume Boutique for a last minute outfit in time for Friday – this had to be done between calls, picking up the girls and making the tea…where there’s a will there’s a way… and bought a beautiful 2ND DAY dress and Tokyo Jane bangles
Then it was time to surprise our gorgeous friend Steph with a baby shower – we’re eeeeking with excitement about the prospect of a little tiny baby in our midst, so held a much needed gathering with our little group of girlies – I thought I’d try and to be funny and make sure she was kitted out with all sorts of embarrassing essentials, (yeah, hilarious)… and a pampering session from the lovely Laura (see Glow on the Go)
Bora Aksu’s show
London Fashion Week was as crazy as ever – I love the fact that even before I walk through the Somerset House archway, people are dressed for a party on another planet first thing in the morning…and that’s exactly what it is…planet Fashion – especially as I had to be at the venue for 6.30am – well worth it, as Bora’s show was amazing and gorgeous and clever as ever, inspired by his home town in Turkey. I tried to use my newly honed photography skills at this, but because I was media shadowing Bora, and there was all sorts of madness kicking off backstage, it was just too difficult – but his show is well worth a view and watch out for the GORGEOUS yellow dress – just stunning
Home Barn Shoot
So I dashed from Bora’s show up to Home Barn for 91 Magazine’s shoot at the Barn – the photographer Michael Sinclair was shooting in virtual darkness, how, I have no idea – all I can say is he’s hugely talented and I love his wild photography – this has all happened via Cybher, where the Home Barn girls, Sally and Sarah met Caroline (Patchwork Harmony), who owns 91 Magazine – watch this space once it goes live, it’ll be STUNNING
Dinner at the Chateau Marmot Pop Up Restaurant
I booked this ages ago after reading about it on my friend Hero’s blog Muddy Stilettos – a few of us had bought tickets, so all decided to group together on one table – a quirky and unique concept with great food created and overseen by chef Ottolenghi – I loved the fact that it was based in the Rowing and River Museum in Henley….but boy did we drink too much!! I wanted to die the next day…
Mark Fast’s Show
Woke up wanting to die…recovered and head back down to London to meet the incredible Mark Fast. He’s amazing, even more amazing is the fact that he and Bora have worked together and are great friends…it was like being in a powerhouse of designers, especially when Bora wished Mark luck backstage before Mark’s show, which I have to say had me mesmerised. What a talented guy, his knitwear was just stunning and dark and hypnotic – I loved it
Met with family, had a roast, relaxed!!
I want to thank everyone who has been my angel this week – I’m so lucky and I’ve been a bit sulky and snappy of late. Thank God I have these people in my life alongside my amazing and patient family…I almost feel back to normal again x